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Monday, August 13, 2012

It's the little things. Disjointed posting.

I realize my stroke story is on the other blog... at some point I will move it over here.  I feel the need to document all the little differences of life post stroke.  I don't always remember all the details of this unchosen challenge I walk -- so it helps to write.
1. Yesterday was the downside of "compadres".  An old friend called and said her young sister had a massive stroke and died.  I was so sorry as this kind of loss is traumatic and she is one of the most caring, giving people I know (she is actually a hospital chaplain alongside teaching full-time).  But I got the feeling she was telling me since I was a stroke participant. I don't know what to say to that. There is good, mediocre, bad outcomes in life?  I am sure it was just to listen. And listening I can do.
2. Also yesterday morning I was upstairs rummaging through the cd cabinet looking for music.  I picked out a couple and carried them to my car.  As I was driving off I leaned over to pop one in the cd player--and, one of the cd's is not what I picked.  I only grabbed two cd's, that were a foot in  front of me.   I am still mildly amused when I make mistakes.  The thought is present.  The intent is there.  The action is completed.  But there is some detail that goes all wildcard on me.  Was it my hand faltering short when reaching? Was it my mind going elsewhere at the last minute so I did not focus on grabbing?  I remember noticing this cd, and thinking that it was very 80's, was that enough to send my brain reaching for it, rather than the one I wanted?  No memory. No idea.  But still fascinating.  When I have to rely on this brain to support me at a full-time job, we shall see how humored I feel.  But luckily, right now, I can enjoy the quixotic spasms of quirkiness.  Sometimes I think it is strange how (prestroke) competent, know-it-all, do-it-myself me has a stroke that has me accepting a) brazen mistakes, b) unknowing, c) help from friends.  

7 comments:

  1. Sorry to hear about your friends sister.

    I am going to have to borrow your phrase .. "some detail that goes all wildcard!" such a perfect description of my everyday life!!! lol

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    1. Thanks, Linda. And feel free to borrow any and all strange phrasing I use!

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  2. A few weeks ago I had to drive into another state, where I go occasionally, but this time to a new place. So I printed out google maps, drove half an hour as far as the turnoff into new territory, and then discovered I'd picked up the wrong set of google maps as I was leaving the house. No stroke necessary to do that :-)

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    1. Too funny!
      BTW, you posted a link on "chickens in the road" to a blog posting I did about fencing post on Blue Shoe Farm... I received so many hits that day it was overwhelming. I could not figure out where it came from!
      She must be a BIG BIG blogger.

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    2. I think she (Suzanne McMinn)is. She has gatherings on her farm periodically and they seem well attended from the photos. She used to write romance novels pre-farm and has a book about her life coming out, so a lot of people probably found her blog that way.

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    3. Ah. I will have to check out the book when it comes out. Is she the one with the son who said "You have brought us to this tilting house to die" or somesuch? I could never find that blog again, but told my kids that quote and they thought it perfect for what I did to them (moved them to a tilting house in the country)

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    4. Yes, that's the one. I read it via http://chickensintheroad.com/2012/ which is chronological, otherwise you have to fish through the different categories to find the new posts.

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